I’ve found today fairly difficult. Of course, I’m still doing my routine of getting up and taking my pill. Then getting dressed and heading off to the gym for a couple of hours. However, the pending court case has been at the forefront of my mind today.
I know everyone keeps telling me that there is no evidence and it’s her word against mine. Yet, throughout my life I have avoided getting into trouble with the law and so standing in a court room is more than just defending myself against a false allegation. It is shaping my character and my standing.
I don’t suppose these feelings will go until after the court case yet even now I know that whatever the outcome it will change me. I’m also aware that I will probably crash and want to sleep – even if I am found not guilty.
Trying to keep myself busy may take my mind off things
There is nothing I can really do about it. I’m taking my headmeds, I’m going to the gym, I’m filling my time with things. I’m even considering changing my career and starting a fresh in something new. I suppose I just have to get on with it.
The point I’m making is that I’m sure these feelings are normal for anyone going through this. It’s just not a very nice feeling at all.